The Week that Was

I’ve in a hiatus for almost a week, life has been a roller coaster ride these past few days. I’ve been feeling low and I was not in the mood to blog. 

1. Flare up again - if you’ve been regular reader of this blog, you are aware that I have psoriasis. Last April, I told my doctor that I want to stop my medication because I don’t want to depend on it. It’s been years that I relied on this medication just to control my psoriasis. I tried to stop the medication two years ago and I experienced severe psoriasis, from head to toes. Read the story here. 

I was afraid to stop taking medication because I know it might happen again but there are things that I need to consider. First, I’m not allowed to get pregnant while on medication because it will lead to miscarriage. Second, the medicine is not good for the liver so I always have regular labtest to monitor my liver. Third, I feel that it is reason why I always have UTI because my immune system is weak.

Now that my psoriasis is all over my body again, I’m back to phototherapy, I’m hoping that I can see improvement after 12 sessions (3x per week) because UVB is so expensive. It is P914 per session, as in every year nag increase ang rate. Waah!

2. Loose Bowel Movement - I had LBM for 5 days and it was the worst case that I’ve experienced. As in, I went to the bathroom more than 15 times a day and I can’t sleep through the night because I need to go to bathroom. 

I felt so weak and dehydrated. My husband wanted me to bring to the hospital because it’s been days already but I rejected it. I dislike going to the hospital, I’ve been going there already 3x  a week because of UVB and ayaw ko na magpacheck-up ulit. 

I even attended my brother-in-law’s wedding last Saturday even though I have LBM. Imagine my feeling, it was the longest wedding that I’ve attended because I really want to go home and stay in the house because I’m not feeling well. 

But I’m glad I’m ok now, I ate a lot of bananas and drank bottles of gatorade.

3. Divided by Technology - I have severe psoriasis and LBM so I’m experiencing emotional stress and last Sunday I felt so alone. It seems that my family is divided by technology. 

I just stayed in the room to rest while my husband was in the living room because there’s no cable in our room. I think it is not really a good idea to have two televisions at home. It was Sunday so my son was busy with his Ipad because he can only use it every weekend. 


4. Father’s Day - we did not celebrate Father’s day because I want to rest. It was my husband’s day but he was so busy taking care of me and doing chores in the house. Thank you! 

Anyway, I want to believe that this too shall pass and it won’t always be this way.